New Year, Better Me

Here we go again. Happy New Year 2013.

And like in past years, I’ve decided to make some changes. I want to be a better me. I’m keeping it broad because there are so many aspects of my life upon which I want to improve and expand. I am doing some things right. But I know deep down that I’ve been half stepping. And it’s reflected in my life.

I’ve been reading self help books, motivational and inspirational literature most of my life. I’ve been on a spiritual quest for ages. But I’ve never fully committed to the work. I would start off doing my affirmations, meditations and journaling but I was easily distracted by ego, work, friends, etc. Time after time, I would let my self work fall by the wayside. I was too caught up in doing whatever project to focus on myself. Things usually end up in some form of disarray _me with heavy heart and regrets and left to pick up where I left off on my journey.  

My latest lesson was unexpectedly losing my job. I was terrified. Because of previous financial setbacks I barely had enough to cover a month’s bills. It was right around the holidays so this add extra stress and anger. I went on a pity party. Why me? Why now? Why didn’t my good friend give me some kind of warning? How could they leave me hanging like this? Now I know the Bible says Ask and ye shall receive. But I let fear and negativity cloud my life. And man did the lack monster get me good. So much bad news it made my head swim, heart sink and blood pressure rise. I got sick; couldn’t sleep for worrying about how I was going to make things happen. My nerves were on edge and I felt like I was at the end of my rope.

I’m aware of how I am affecting my own life positively or negatively. I am the Master of my thoughts. And law of attraction says basically you are what you think. So If I focus on negativity, lack, scarcity, hate, disappoint rest assured more of that to come. And ain’t no body got time for that. LBVS.

First Step: Change my thinking

                 I’m starting with the (hu)man in my mirror. I’m asking her to change her ways (of thinking and feeling).

I’m no longer harping on worry, negativity nor lack because the more I think those things the more of that is what’s appearing in my life.  “You can see the law of attraction everywhere,” Lisa Nichols explained in The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. “You draw everything to yourself. The people, the job, the circumstances, the health, the wealth, the debt, the joy, the car that you drive, the community that you’re in. And you’ve drawn them all to you like a magnet. What you think about you bring about. Your whole life is a manifestation of the thoughts that go on in your head.”  WOW

The beauty of it is we have the power to change our thinking and in turn change our lives at any moment. So now when I find myself drifting towards worry, fear, sadness I’m going to shake my self off and change it up real quick. You can erase previous thoughts by replacing them with good thoughts. We’ve all heard the saying “Think before you speak,” now I’m going to also remember to choose what I think.

For my self care, I’m incorporating positive self talk, affirmations, journaling, meditation, reading for enrichment, uplifting music, etc. I read my bible, attend seminars on various subjects, watch religious and spiritual TV. Some of my favorites are Oprah’s Super Soul Sunday, Rev. Michael B. Beckwith, Joel Olsteen, and most recently I’ve received the word from Rev. Meeks of Salem Baptist, Rev. Gaylon McDowell of Christ Universal Temple and Gabrielle Bernstein.

I choose to focus on love, abundance, beauty, positivity, hope, kindness, generosity. And in turn more and more of those things will appear in my life. And hopefully as I “fix my life” I will inspire others to join me on the journey of self love and self care.

Don’t Believe Me Just Watch.

Luv,
La